My Christmas Present :)

It is taking me longer and longer these days to get ready because everything I put on either 1. does not fit or 2. I look horrible in it. Last weekend my family was banned from the master bedroom as I took 45 minutes to find something to wear for the family Christmas party. After finally being half way happy with an outfit even though it was short sleeves in December, I got makeup on the shirt and couldn't get it out. I ended up wearing a sleeveless shirt and still not happy with how I looked at all. I REFUSE to buy more clothes because I know if I bought new clothes I would get more comfortable with being overweight and I do not want that to happen.

So Doug got a side job this week which he never does anymore with this economy. He is so sweet that he wanted to use the money for a Christmas gift for me even though we aren't exchanging gifts this year due to finances. I personally am not big on adult gifts now that I have my 2 girls. Several people at work have been going thru medical weight loss assistance and have had great results so I really wanted to do this but did not have the money. I convinced Doug to pay for this as my present. He thinks it is a horrible present and not something a man should give a woman. I told him to think of it as giving me a whole closet full of clothes and me some self pride back.

So that is how I ended up on a diet 2 days before Christmas. I really want to start now instead of gaining another pound of two before I start. I really need to get some weight off before going back to work so that I can fit into some clothes.

So the plan is to go see a doctor once a week for a B12 shot, weigh in, and counseling. They have prescribed me an appetite suppresent to take daily. I am also taking LGlutine to help curb my desire for carbs and sugar which is all I eat. For the first 30 days I will be on an 800 calorie a day diet. I will go up to 1,000 calories from day 31-my goal. To maintain my desired weight at my age I will need to stick to a 1,327 calorie a day diet. They said that number goes down every year :( I am currently borrowing my mom's Wii Fit for at least 30 minutes of excercise each day. I am also borrowing her Ab Lounger to do while watching tv for about 10 minutes each day.

I am hoping seeing someone once a week and having this blog will keep me accountable. This is something I really want to do for myself and my family.