Layna Reading

We are so proud of how Layna is doing in school. She won't let me work with her much but when she does she is making great progress. I am very impressed with her ability to sound out words. Sight words are not her strength but she almost knows all 40 that are required in Kindergarten. I would like to see her know 100 before she starts first grade. She is also good at picture clues. I would like to see her improve on one to one correspondence. We are so blessed that she is at a good school and has two great teachers working with her!

Official Weigh In

I lost 4 pounds :) I was really hoping for 5 but this is the most I have ever lost in one week so I will take it.

My new equations:
Current Weight=goal +35
Current Weight =original-4

My body fat went down slightly to 32.7%

I sure hope my Wii is right!

According to my Wii Fit I lost another 1 1/2 pounds yesterday which means I have lost 4 1/2 pounds. My goal for this first week is 5 pounds so if the Wii is right I should definitely make it. This loss of 5 pounds should open up more options for outfits on Monday.

I am loving the B12 shot! I have so much energy and motivation that I am constantly doing something around the house. I have not sat around near as much as I normally do. I am exercising twice a day which probably won't be an option once I go back to work but it is nice to have the energy to do it. I will definitely keep doing some kind of B12 supplements once I reach my goal!

I put on Facebook a shout out for anyone who wants to sell their Wii Fit and someone I used to go to church with is selling me their barely used board along with the new Wii Fit Plus game for $50. That is half of the retail value so I am so excited! I will be able to retun Mom's just in time for the New Year. I am also excited about some of the features of the Plus game.

2 Pounds Gone :)

I am trying not to get too excited because I don't know how much I trust the Wii but according to it I lost 2 pounds yesterday. I hope it is right :) I was really good yesterday. I exercised with the Wii twice at 30 minutes each time and I also did some house cleaning, laundry, and took down and put up all the Christmas decorations. Since having the B12 shot I have more energy and seem to be constantly moving. I only consumed 716 calories and didn't really feel hungry.

I Made it Thru Christmas

I know I am crazy for going on a diet the week of Christmas but I didn't want to put on any more weight before I started my diet. I consider myself 100% successful on Christmas Eve. I exercised and I think I stuck to 800 calories or less but can't be certain since Mom's spaghetti doesn't come with a nutrition label or barcode. I only ate a small portion of spaghetti though and did not eat any sweets.

Christmas Day was a bit more challenging. I was so busy playing with the kids that I didn't have time to exercise. I also didn't feel too good yesterday so it was a good day to skip the exercise component. Judging on how hard it was for me to work out today due to soreness, I doubt I could have done much yesterday. I did good on eating till dinner. I ate some turkey and a little bit of macaroni and cheese pie which wasn't too bad but I couldn't resist trying the desserts I made. I made a angel food cake using my grandmother's recipe for boiled white icing which was a huge challenge for me since I am not a good cook. I wanted to surprise my mom for her birthday. Her mom used to make it for her every year on her birthday. So of course I had to try a small piece to see how I did. I don't like to brag but it tasted pretty good even if it was ugly. I made mom take the rest of it home with her! I also had a small slice of buttermilk pie.

I do not plan on weighing myself except when I report to the clinic because I know scales are all different and your body's weight changes constantly so I don't want to mess with my head on a daily basis. Wii Fit did tell me this morning though that I had lost since the last time I played which was Christmas Eve morning. According to Wii it is 8/10 of a pound which is hardly anything(I could have peed that out) but I am thrilled that I didn't gain during those two days which I definitely would have if not on a diet.

12 Reasons Why I Want to Reach My Goal Weight

They had me do this activity to help me maintain focus. They suggest reading this list when I want to go over my calories or not exercise and ask myself if it is worth it. I think this is a great mental activity. They also recommend reading this list to myself at least once a day. I found it hard to come up with 12 different reasons but here they are...
1. I want to look cute in clothes
2. I want to be sexy for Doug
3. I don't want people to think I am lazy
4. I want to have energy to play with my girls
5. I want to be and feel healthy
6. I want to fit in my clothes
7. I want to get rid of the muffin top
8. I want the option of wearing a 2 piece bathing suit
9. I don't want back pain
10. I want to feel good about myself
11. I want to fit into tight spaces
12. I don't want to get any fatter.

First Weigh In

I do not feel comfortable posting my weight on the internet so I will use an equation to show my progress.
Weight: Goal + 39
Body Fat: 33%

How I got to be this big

PreMarriage:
I was blessed as a teenager in that I could eat whatever I want, do little activity, and be skinny. As a teenager I thought I was fat but man how I would love to be that fat again. As a bride to be I didn't care about weight gain. The dress I ordered was a little too big so I actually needed to gain a little. I joked that I wanted to put on some weight before I got married so that people wouldn't say I started getting fat once he married me. According to my driver's license which has been renewed but not updated since 2 weeks after my wedding I now weight 39 pounds more than I did almost 9 years ago.
Pregnancies:
Some of the weight came before I even got pregnant the first time. My first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 14 weeks and my belly went back down by my postop appointment two weeks after my D & C. I knew I wanted to get pregnant right away so I didn't worry about gaining weight after that. I had my gaulbladder removed and found out I was pregnant with Layna when the doctor saw something suspicious during the surgery. Typically you loose weight after having your gaulbladder removed. I did loose weight at the begining of Layna's pregnancy and the doctor's gave me a hard time. They were afraid I was dieting while pregnant. So my solution was to drink milkshakes every day and pig out so that I would show a gain on the scales even though it was not the baby growing or healthy calories. Everyone bugged me about how tiny Layna would be due to my lack of weight gain but she joined us at 8lbs 1oz. The weight from her fell right off. I LOVE being a working mother but it comes with guilt. I fill like a tug of rope between work, my girls, and Doug. So after having Layna I was so obsessed with spending time with her that I didn't worry about watching my weight at all. When Layna was 2 I did get serious about working out and loved going to the gym but that all came to a hault when I tore tendons and had a fractured ankle. This happened in the middle of a kick boxing class and I haven't been good at going to the gym since. When we decided to have another baby I came off of some medication. This along with the attitude of "I'm about to get fat anyways" caused me to gain 30 pounds before I even got pregnant. Liya's pregancy was like Layna's in that I lost weight at the begining. I did the same way I did with Layna and pigged out on unhealthy things. After Liya's birth my "pregnancy" weight fell right off but the "prepregancy gain" stuck around. I breastfeed Liya exclusively for 5 months. I breasfeed and pumped what I could till she was 9 months old. While breasfeeding I stopped loosing weight but I was eating whatever I wanted and did not gain. Breasfeeding seemed to make me hungry so I ate more than normal. I also got in the routine of having a late night chocolate milk for calcium. Once I stopped breastfeeding the hunger was still there but I wasn't using the calories. I quickly started putting weight back on which is when I knew I had to do something.

My Christmas Present :)

It is taking me longer and longer these days to get ready because everything I put on either 1. does not fit or 2. I look horrible in it. Last weekend my family was banned from the master bedroom as I took 45 minutes to find something to wear for the family Christmas party. After finally being half way happy with an outfit even though it was short sleeves in December, I got makeup on the shirt and couldn't get it out. I ended up wearing a sleeveless shirt and still not happy with how I looked at all. I REFUSE to buy more clothes because I know if I bought new clothes I would get more comfortable with being overweight and I do not want that to happen.

So Doug got a side job this week which he never does anymore with this economy. He is so sweet that he wanted to use the money for a Christmas gift for me even though we aren't exchanging gifts this year due to finances. I personally am not big on adult gifts now that I have my 2 girls. Several people at work have been going thru medical weight loss assistance and have had great results so I really wanted to do this but did not have the money. I convinced Doug to pay for this as my present. He thinks it is a horrible present and not something a man should give a woman. I told him to think of it as giving me a whole closet full of clothes and me some self pride back.

So that is how I ended up on a diet 2 days before Christmas. I really want to start now instead of gaining another pound of two before I start. I really need to get some weight off before going back to work so that I can fit into some clothes.

So the plan is to go see a doctor once a week for a B12 shot, weigh in, and counseling. They have prescribed me an appetite suppresent to take daily. I am also taking LGlutine to help curb my desire for carbs and sugar which is all I eat. For the first 30 days I will be on an 800 calorie a day diet. I will go up to 1,000 calories from day 31-my goal. To maintain my desired weight at my age I will need to stick to a 1,327 calorie a day diet. They said that number goes down every year :( I am currently borrowing my mom's Wii Fit for at least 30 minutes of excercise each day. I am also borrowing her Ab Lounger to do while watching tv for about 10 minutes each day.

I am hoping seeing someone once a week and having this blog will keep me accountable. This is something I really want to do for myself and my family.